Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Miscarriage Again

This is the third one this year. It started last night. I don't understand this. I wonder if I should just go back to preventing pregnancy for a few months to give my body time to get back to normal? Going through this every month is just tearing me up. I don't know what to do. There doesn't seem to be anything I CAN do. On this last one I didn't even feel hopeful anymore really. I don't even know how to pray anymore except to keep trusting God because I know that He has a plan and a purpose in this. I'm starting to wonder if maybe He's preparing me to accept that I may never have another baby. Daniel and I both want to adopt an older child someday, and that would get pushed off farther if I had another baby. In the meantime, we'll just keep praying and waiting for God's answer.

4 comments:

Jana said...

I am so sorry to hear about this. I'm sure it's been a very emotional rollercoaster for you.

Jenny Lilac said...

Sorry to hear you are going through this...my thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Cherry Moon said...

I am sooo sorry :::hugs:::

Laurie said...

I am so sorry to hear of your miscarriages. I, too, had recurring miscarriages. I had 4 within one year and then a healthy baby girl. We tried waiting, not waiting, and it didn't seem to matter, God was in control. I hope this is of some encouragement to you. Blessings on you.