We are all in total shock. Yesterday morning while I was working on math with Danya and Gloria we got an unexpected phone call. Penny and Bunny's caseworker informed us that there was a permanancy planning court hearing for them that morning that had gone very badly. Although the DCFS caseworkers and the Guardian ad Litem all recommended that the girls stay where they are while their families continue to work on their plans, the judge didn't agree. So we had to get Penny from school, pack their things, and deliver them to DCFS by 3pm.
The older girls were all devastated. Penny just kept crying hysterically and begging us, "Please don't make me go!" She hasn't even met her grandparents in years, but she had to go home with them yesterday. I don't know what will happen to the girls, but I made sure that the caseworkers know that we are here if and when Penny and Bunny come back into the system. I can't imagine that in two months' time their grandparents have suddenly learned how to care for children in a safer manner.
We're all just stunned. I feel like someone took my own kids away. I'm trying to hang tough for my family. Hopefully, all the things I keep saying to Danya and Gloria about this being God's plan and a part of being a foster family that we just have to endure so that we can help kids, will eventually sink in for me, too, and help me through this feeling of grief. I want my girls back!